For a moment, I thought I was getting back into this blog thing, but then a few tough things hit and I just don't like to write when I'm down.
The world is going through so many tough struggles of it's own, it doesn't need to add my meaningless ones to it.
We are here.
We are getting by.
I don't know why, but I am still struggling with Josh being out of the military.
It's not the income part of it, it's not the healthcare part of it,
It's the people part of it.
It's the pride part of it.
I miss it.
And while I should be sharing the adventures of our summer thus far; birthday parties, VBS, fire truck "field trips" and so much more.
I still just feel melancholy.
And I hope you understand just a little.
For those that have gotten out and had no problem looking forward and putting the military past behind, kudos to you.
I am not one of you.
Don't get me wrong, there are good moments.
And it's so nice to not have to fear that phone call that reveals a deployment.
But it's still going to take a little bit.
Maybe when we have a home and the boxes are unpacked.