Because someone had to do it first!

Happy Mother's Day to the two wonderful ladies 

who made it possible for me to (a) exist and (b) become a momma myself!! ;)

Today..

Today I started out with an amazing sweaty workout followed by an egg and ham breakfast sandwich.

Then I went and got a pedicure, medicure, and a iced decaf mocha, that I may or may not have come home and put some Bailey's in.

Then I came home, sat outside for twenty minutes in the sun, and drank said mocha.

And now I am relaxing on the couch.

No stressing,

No worrying,

No getting caught up in drama.

Just celebrating my parents on their 39th wedding anniversary, celebrating mother's day, celebrating my longest, closest friend's birthday, but most importantly:

Today I am celebrating my sisters, (and brothers.)

Today is Military Spouse Appreciation Day.

Source

So many people have put today into so many special words, but I can only say thank you.

Thank you for being the silent rocks that support the service member behind the scenes.
Thank you for continuing to love and support your man (or woman) even though the country and military make it so miserably hard all of the time.
Thank you for being the best single parent you could possible be.
Thank you for keeping to all together.

I wish you could be honored the way you deserve!!

Chapter Complete

8 years, 5 months and 17 days ago my husband got on a plane to San Diego.
 

3 months after that I proudly stood and watched him receive his eagle, globe and anchor.

Today officially ends my husbands service in the United States Marine Corps....

*****

We are not the same couple that walked off the parade deck that super rainy day in February.

We had no idea what the future held; the ups and downs, the sad or happy moments.

We were young (but still WAY older than most of the couples there that day,) and in shape, with no wrinkles or gray hair.

Everything was so promising.

But I wouldn't change a thing...

And I love him today more than ever.

I hope so much that one day the good memories will outshine the bad.
That my husband will one day stand proud and tall, when called a veteran, and not shy away from the respect and admiration that he deserves.

Chapter closed.

Thanks for the memories military family.
Just don't forget about us, we will never forget about you.

2 months later

I somehow ended up in my blogger dashboard tonight.

It had been awhile.

When I wrote my last post I had every intention of picking up writing again, but life, illness and migraines soon had other ideas.

So here I sit trying to decide whether I should share individually, the posts I have been writing in my head, combine them all in one, or maybe just ramble tonight.

Because something led me here....

In 48 hours my safety net is being taken down.

We will officially be stepping into the darkness.

We didn't think it would be easy, but we definitely didn't think it would be this hard.

On another note, I am being absolutely blessed by spending all day, every day with my husband.
When he does go back to work I am going to be so lost.

I do not like rain as much I as I did when I was younger, (but that is a whole other blog post.)

Getting passports, (at least here,) has been the biggest pain in the butt. My Aunt better be so grateful when we have them in hand, (and better yet, use them!!!) ;)

Every one I know seems to be moving, going to school, or pregnant.

I am not one of those.
But many kudos to the people who are all three.

I like tulips a little more than I use to.

Even though this post turned into a random pointless mess, I feel a million times better after writing it.

And with that, I will leave you with a photo of tulips and thank those of you who are genuinely praying for our future.

Good night all!

Silence and Social Media

Hi,
My name is Marcella.
I am still "currently" a Marine wife, a mother of two, and without a home.
I feel like I need to introduce myself again because I practically don't even know who I am anymore.

I used to feel bad when I didn't read everyone's blog posts the day they wrote them.
        I then had to accept I couldn't.

I used to feel bad when I didn't like everyone's posts or pictures on facebook within an hour.
        I then I accepted I couldn't.

I used to let people's ignorant ways and bad attitudes get to me every time I logged on.
       And then I just fell silent and let it eat away at me for too long.

No More.

I am on blogger so I can share my thoughts and feelings. {Maybe find an unexpected friend or two.}

I am on facebook so that loved ones who are far away can watch my children grow and I can watch their lives unfold.

Nothing More.

To tell you the truth, a big part of me misses reading blogs on a daily basis, but spending time adjusting to a new area and quality time with my husband and children are so much more important to me.
I just want to be able to write and share, without feeling guilty that I haven't been caught up on blogs since last fall.....


I will not feel bad for standing up for what I believe in.
I will not be shy about sharing my faith in Jesus Christ.
I will not let the influence of the world try to say my beliefs are ignorant.
I will do my absolute best to protect my babies, that God placed in my care, here on earth.
I will continue to share how hard it is to transition from a Marine Corps family to a civilian one without feeling like my readers are telling me to "just get over it."


*****
If you made it to the end, you are awesome and you get to see pictures! ;)

Easter 2013:

 Our kids playing "chicken football" with one of their grandpas:

Temporary Housing

This post could go anyway, but I feel that true, sincere honesty is the only way it can go.

Your well meaning words have got to end.

Your questions about our future have got to stop.

By asking me how I am holding up or if my husband has a job lined up, you are only letting Satan use you as a tool to create doubt.

Doubt it not something I need right now.
Negativity is not something I need right now.
Trying to remind me I am a control freak that likes it my way, in my time, in my space is definitely not what I need right now.

The truth is,

We definitely do not know what we are doing.

If we used our move and the week leading up to our move as any indication, it would be all pointing at the wrong choice. (For example, our son came down with pneumonia and our neighbor backed into our car 2 days before we left....The list goes on.)

But we didn't make the choice. 

I can't focus on the fact that we will soon have no income, no home and no health insurance.
I can't have you continuing to point out the obvious and giving me looks of "you got to be crazy."

I can't spend all my waking moments trying to figure it all out.
It's NOT my job.

~ I am not suppose to be comfortable here on earth, it's not my home.

 Building 429 ~"Where I belong"

~I am to be completely supportive of my husband; Like when I get a phone call saying "how about North Dakota or Montana and moving again right away," I say for sure, whatever you want and then secretly get excited deep down knowing I will follow my husband to the moon and back because I love him that much. (This is not something that is for sure, but a possibility, for all you friends & relatives that are now freaking out....)

So when you say you will pray for us, 
please don't try to get a plan from us...you won't receive an honest one.
We don't have one.
But God does, and we are just along for the ride.

"Fair Winds and Following Seas"

The USMC is losing a damn good Marine today...

All because some grunts couldn't pull their heads out of their "butts" and accept a former Air Winger; Instead feeling the need to bully, harass and threaten him and the well being of his family for the last three years.

I will always be patriotic and support our troops but a lot of the pride I had, has turned to shame.

Thank God for the few people we met along the way who still have morals and values.

May God always use me as a support for these families.

And may I never forget what it was like to be a Marine wife.

Thank you for your prayers and support as we start out on our new "adventure."

ABC's of me

{A} Age: 32 (Today!!)

{B} Bed size: King (I said I'd never have a king; then we had kids, bought one, and it was the best decision ever!) ;)

{C} Chore you hate: Scrubbing showers. (I don't mind cleaning/chores at all, but for some reason I HATE cleaning the shower/bathtub.)

{D} Dogs: 1, Sydney

{E} Essential start to your day: Bible reading, email and FB catch up.

{F} Favorite color: Blue

{G} Gold or Silver: Silver

{H} Height: 5'4

{I} Instruments you play: iPod ;)

{J} Job Title: Wife, Mommy

{K} Kids: 2

{L} Live: California

{M} Married: 8

{N} Nicknames: My parents called me Mari when I was little, and many people have called me different nicknames over the years, but otherwise nothing special.

{O} Overnight hospital stays: Just the births of my children.

{P} Pet peeve: Un-organization.

{Q} Quote: "If you can't be with the ones you love, love the ones your with."

{R} Righty or Lefty: righty

{S} Siblings: 2 brothers, 1 sister

{T} Time you wake up: Between 630 and 730

{U} University attended: Not that smart. ;)

{V} Vegetables you dislike: I am still not a fan of squash. The thought of it makes me gag.

{W} What makes you run late: I detest being late, but kids can cause anything.

{X} X-Rays you've had: I've have X-rays on my back often to check my spine damage, ones on my ankles, arm and of course yearly dental ones.

{Y} Yummy food: Mexican is always a comfort food for me!

{Z} Zoo animal favorite: It's been so long. Maybe penguins.